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Tuesday, July 21, 2009
21st Century Awareness - As Time Goes By
Yesterday as I watched a programme about *the eating and cooking habits* of The Germans, more or less going back to the Germany after WW2, also a Germany split in 2, separated by
the Berlin wall. Several persons were interviewed, telling their story about how it was *then*.
Most of them reminisced - all of them even rather melancholy, women were at home, nor in a career, eating at home was normal, eating out very unusual and were talking about *the day*
that for instance SPAGETTI either *Bolognaise* or with that typical Italian Tomatoe Sauce was THE HOTTEST fad.
What struck me most of all: the really AWFUL pictures shown, not that the ğictures were that bad, what I saw was awful, The Beatles, Adenhauer, former East Germany and the absolute
DREARINESS overall.
Gosh I commented: did I also go through those '50's, 60's, 70's, living life as it was then? How
ghastly, dreary it all looked to me NOW, quite happy with being alive in this year 2009, with
so much going on that I feel * gives colour* to life.
That 21st Century Awareness stayed with me as I slept, because this morning I felt rather great.
Not I, Mrs *Great*, but rather great - as in good, fairly energetic despite the heatwave we are suffering here (Turkey), as in I am feeling fairly happy.
I know that sounds *unhappy*, but I can assure readers it is *happy*.
Sometimes you can feel troubled, restless, worried for very valid reasons, which happened.
Even under terrible emotional endurance lasting *as if it would never end* I stayed a rather happy-with-my-life- person until at some moment I discovered that I felt absolutely terrible.
That invisible leaden burden seemed to cause me to feel as if life was not worth living, a useless existence, no longer *needed* as a retired person, out of the mainstream and looking at faces of people I once knew with horror.
Yesterday, Monday 20th July, 2009 I managed to fill out my 2008 Tax Income Paper ONLINE, electronically and within seconds it was done, and was I able to see the result - to pay or a refund - and how much. My taxform online is never the same as the year before, and until now
I have not been able to get it right without the help (by phone) from a taxform expert.
When it was BEHIND me - and that was real proof: I really had to keep saying to myself: I AM FREE - it is done. And as I said *proof* how even a tiny issue as this - (I knew that I would not be taxed more than I had paid already) can hang over your head 24/7 and make your life miserable.
With that 21st Century Awareness - determined to get things right, done, behind me, I was
rapidly starting to feel more like *the old me* - the one I like much much better, but that
*old me* lived 20-25 years ago, in main-stream, and with a life and life-style I really enjoyed.
Until now however I have not yet been able to say: thank goodness that is behind me.
I know you see, that it was not all it seems to be NOW. As I said: I did enjoy everything then, and now 20-25 years older: I probably would not want to return to that life, in fact I cannot because it is behind me - done with.
How *feelings* can be your best *weather forecast*, also I know. How bad, unhappy feelings
can influence your life permanently, I knew as well, but it had not happened to me then, not yet.
Now, despite a chronic shortage of money, because I am supporting my daughter and granddaughter, which made me the most miserable, I am slowly beginning to feel slightly
better, almost as if *The Law Of Attraction* (in which I do not believe really) is opening up old
alleys, I always knew and considered being part of me.
As if some real evilness was able to block those alleys, not wanting me to be happy and SUCCESSFUL. And such awarenesses, that this can really happen, I not only believe, I KNOW
in fact *it exists*.
It would be wonderful to enjoy life again and look forward to many more *HAPPY DAYS* turning into more and more *HAPPY YEARS*
What I notice as a sensitive, each moment these last 20 or so years, I consider RESEARCH, next to *a learning process* and in time, as these happier feelings occur, and *take me back*,
I shall be able to explain better.
Until a next moment in my life: enjoy your summer, your holiday, your life.
Willy
the Berlin wall. Several persons were interviewed, telling their story about how it was *then*.
Most of them reminisced - all of them even rather melancholy, women were at home, nor in a career, eating at home was normal, eating out very unusual and were talking about *the day*
that for instance SPAGETTI either *Bolognaise* or with that typical Italian Tomatoe Sauce was THE HOTTEST fad.
What struck me most of all: the really AWFUL pictures shown, not that the ğictures were that bad, what I saw was awful, The Beatles, Adenhauer, former East Germany and the absolute
DREARINESS overall.
Gosh I commented: did I also go through those '50's, 60's, 70's, living life as it was then? How
ghastly, dreary it all looked to me NOW, quite happy with being alive in this year 2009, with
so much going on that I feel * gives colour* to life.
That 21st Century Awareness stayed with me as I slept, because this morning I felt rather great.
Not I, Mrs *Great*, but rather great - as in good, fairly energetic despite the heatwave we are suffering here (Turkey), as in I am feeling fairly happy.
I know that sounds *unhappy*, but I can assure readers it is *happy*.
Sometimes you can feel troubled, restless, worried for very valid reasons, which happened.
Even under terrible emotional endurance lasting *as if it would never end* I stayed a rather happy-with-my-life- person until at some moment I discovered that I felt absolutely terrible.
That invisible leaden burden seemed to cause me to feel as if life was not worth living, a useless existence, no longer *needed* as a retired person, out of the mainstream and looking at faces of people I once knew with horror.
Yesterday, Monday 20th July, 2009 I managed to fill out my 2008 Tax Income Paper ONLINE, electronically and within seconds it was done, and was I able to see the result - to pay or a refund - and how much. My taxform online is never the same as the year before, and until now
I have not been able to get it right without the help (by phone) from a taxform expert.
When it was BEHIND me - and that was real proof: I really had to keep saying to myself: I AM FREE - it is done. And as I said *proof* how even a tiny issue as this - (I knew that I would not be taxed more than I had paid already) can hang over your head 24/7 and make your life miserable.
With that 21st Century Awareness - determined to get things right, done, behind me, I was
rapidly starting to feel more like *the old me* - the one I like much much better, but that
*old me* lived 20-25 years ago, in main-stream, and with a life and life-style I really enjoyed.
Until now however I have not yet been able to say: thank goodness that is behind me.
I know you see, that it was not all it seems to be NOW. As I said: I did enjoy everything then, and now 20-25 years older: I probably would not want to return to that life, in fact I cannot because it is behind me - done with.
How *feelings* can be your best *weather forecast*, also I know. How bad, unhappy feelings
can influence your life permanently, I knew as well, but it had not happened to me then, not yet.
Now, despite a chronic shortage of money, because I am supporting my daughter and granddaughter, which made me the most miserable, I am slowly beginning to feel slightly
better, almost as if *The Law Of Attraction* (in which I do not believe really) is opening up old
alleys, I always knew and considered being part of me.
As if some real evilness was able to block those alleys, not wanting me to be happy and SUCCESSFUL. And such awarenesses, that this can really happen, I not only believe, I KNOW
in fact *it exists*.
It would be wonderful to enjoy life again and look forward to many more *HAPPY DAYS* turning into more and more *HAPPY YEARS*
What I notice as a sensitive, each moment these last 20 or so years, I consider RESEARCH, next to *a learning process* and in time, as these happier feelings occur, and *take me back*,
I shall be able to explain better.
Until a next moment in my life: enjoy your summer, your holiday, your life.
Willy
Saturday, July 4, 2009
21st Century Awareness and TIME MANAGEMENT
I repeat:
Yes: 21st Century Awareness and Time Management
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How about you? Are you *excercising* time management? I know that there are many website and online businesses offering courses in *TIME MANAGEMENT*, some even freebies as a tidbit, getting you interested to *eat* more of their *food*, some straight-out with expensive packages to be purchased and it has become possible because of that marvellous 21st Century phenomenon THE WORLD WIDE WEB.
It is *wonderful*, whatever you are thinking of when it comes to learning, buying, getting information: it is out there, available, around the clock.
Some are (already) addicted to *Internet* - kids specially, with courses for parents - yes- at a *help for parents* centre SEEING what their kids are *up t0* (games, porno, whatever that other adults have created in order to get some *hooked*. Kids are susceptible, curious, and outright *naughty* and smart enough to always FIND, what an *ordinary* parent did not think did even exist.
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Time Management therefore is *still* a wonderful issue, a great *habit* and would it not be absolutely fantastic*us* if somehow every human being has it firmly fixed inside that individual's cells. All of them if that is *technically* possible.
I personally would like to have such a mechanism working for me, if that *could be arranged*, then at least I would be able to cope splendidly with the enormous amount of work that I decided I needed to go through.
Incidentally: this morning I received one of my daily (health) tips, I collect them, and it said that in a test the outcome had been that persons * volunteering* had a better health and others *not volunteering* were in less good shape.
I needed to read it twice, the way the senders had phrased this, in clearer words: if you yourself DECIDE you feel much better than when you are forced (dragged) to do something.
The funny thing is though that sayings have existed, since the human race came about I would be inclined to say, that SAY THE SAME THING!!
Such as: you can drag a dog to water, but you cannot make it drink. As far as I am concerned it means exactly the same as what I read this morning, the outcome of RESEARCH, in the USA of course.
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IGNORANCE - The Root of ALL EVIL, I read as well this morning, quickly opening up my iGoogle webpage, where I had placed a new gadget:
Yes: 21st Century Awareness and Time Management
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How about you? Are you *excercising* time management? I know that there are many website and online businesses offering courses in *TIME MANAGEMENT*, some even freebies as a tidbit, getting you interested to *eat* more of their *food*, some straight-out with expensive packages to be purchased and it has become possible because of that marvellous 21st Century phenomenon THE WORLD WIDE WEB.
It is *wonderful*, whatever you are thinking of when it comes to learning, buying, getting information: it is out there, available, around the clock.
Some are (already) addicted to *Internet* - kids specially, with courses for parents - yes- at a *help for parents* centre SEEING what their kids are *up t0* (games, porno, whatever that other adults have created in order to get some *hooked*. Kids are susceptible, curious, and outright *naughty* and smart enough to always FIND, what an *ordinary* parent did not think did even exist.
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Time Management therefore is *still* a wonderful issue, a great *habit* and would it not be absolutely fantastic*us* if somehow every human being has it firmly fixed inside that individual's cells. All of them if that is *technically* possible.
I personally would like to have such a mechanism working for me, if that *could be arranged*, then at least I would be able to cope splendidly with the enormous amount of work that I decided I needed to go through.
Incidentally: this morning I received one of my daily (health) tips, I collect them, and it said that in a test the outcome had been that persons * volunteering* had a better health and others *not volunteering* were in less good shape.
I needed to read it twice, the way the senders had phrased this, in clearer words: if you yourself DECIDE you feel much better than when you are forced (dragged) to do something.
The funny thing is though that sayings have existed, since the human race came about I would be inclined to say, that SAY THE SAME THING!!
Such as: you can drag a dog to water, but you cannot make it drink. As far as I am concerned it means exactly the same as what I read this morning, the outcome of RESEARCH, in the USA of course.
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IGNORANCE - The Root of ALL EVIL, I read as well this morning, quickly opening up my iGoogle webpage, where I had placed a new gadget:
QUOTES BY PLATO
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Good old Plato, I *giggled* silently.
I live alone, you see so with my kind of sense of humor I go through what I think is interesting, funny: ALONE
Dear OLD PLATO, I thought again, I have the full picture stored somewhere on my PC, the daily quotes only show the top part (the torso) but I recognised it immediately.
Words of wisdom by one of the most respected FILOSOFERS we know (about), I liked the idea to see such quotes, but I am sure other prefer to look at something else as soon as they open their *office* (the computer online attached to the World Wide Web). Their bankstatement(s) for instance, to see how much they earned with a JV sales promotion, or whether someone overdue has finally paid.
At the same time that I read this PLATO QUOTE, a few issues went through my mind, they would be *funny* to someone with a similar *trackrecord* as mine, but extremely infuriating to someone else, someone for instance of *THE MALE PERSUATION*.
I know all that because I have been through all that and when I am in a *benign frame of mind* I can relay such *wisecracks of mine* quite well, even have some men roar with laughter.
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Unfortunately, even though the bran is being separated from the wheat a lot these days, I still have too much on my plate.
Yes I have a lot to do.
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And because of it I NEED STAMINA (Ausdauer in German), training for a World (Olympics) Championship not yet dated.
It is also a case of having a very long breath, keeping the neediest *muscle* in the body in tip-top-shape.
No,no, it is not what most readers would think, even I as I typed it I *thought of it*, the muscle I am referring to is actually THE BRAIN and I have to tell you: yet another email this morning talked about THE BRAIN as if it is *a muscle*, which it is not we have learned.
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But it is very true, without a tip-top-in-shape-brain not much is happening.
And if you want to ACHIEVE something in the future, which is not yet ready to come out now: you might as well train your brain to function brilliantly and work on such a concept continuously, when what you have in mind - no longer *anxious and in a hurry to come out with it* - is something getting more and more interesting with *as time goes by* PROOF, and more proof that what you want to *SELL* is something the world really wants to have.
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So I have *time*
Whether *time* is on my side I cannot (yet) say firmly and decisively, I shall feel it, when that is the case.
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TIME MANAGEMENT, just the most ordinary time management, has been included (again) in my daily life, I am very pleased about that, because you are more relaxed, you feel less *up tight*, you can laugh and *smile* at someone (even one you despise or loathe).
Note: nothing *technical* basically said by me, just words of truth, wisdom to some extent, how I see things, how I experience my *every day* and others: they do the work.
I for the time being do the thinking: about what I read, what happens to me, what happened to others, what the papers said and then: all that mushy stuff, if you would eat it all that hotch-potch I have gone through I am sure you would become violently *sick*.
I know, because it also HAPPENED to me, but no longer: I can handle what I see, absorb, think about, and while I sleep: I restore myself (instead of bothering my poor brain ever again to sleep on what happened during the day).
I needed to do that as well, for a while returning to the 21st Century and ticking off the items on my long list that I needed researching with the aid of a PC, and with Internet access to the better sources of information, whilst at the same time *going through door-to-door leaflets* in order to familiarize myself of the stuff being offered, and what they cost.
A *backlog* of about 15 or so years I needed to get through, meanwhile continuing with the work I am doing *really*: metaphysical science, multi-dimensional kinesiology and orthomolecular nutritional medicine.
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I did feel rather akward, and often I still feel akward, because after all so many others have been online marketers, and have so much more experience, particularly how to set up websites with the necessary *chain* of support to keep you going - as an online business.
I do not have anything of the kind (yet) hence my statement that (at least) I need stamina and a long breath.
Besides: the more I learned, the more *I learned* - and became aware of several issues.
Recognizing these issues, made me very AWARE, specially what I never would want to be doing. Do not make that mistake I would be saying to myself. If you care to remember ?? my own *good self* would help me - you never liked this or that, such work, such people and eventually I remembered: Yuk - very true, looking at a photograph for instance of a couple (nearly married soon for 50 years, by God).
Just imagine me - perish the thought - being like that.
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The 21st Century Awareness is really about *new*, about *AGE*, about new metaphysical awareness as well, and even if I know a lot - I need training to get it out, above all: in *easy language* useful for ordinary beings.
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Now: this is time management: it is 17.50, as if I was closing my shop in The Netherlands, in my time (now the opening hours are different) they closed at 18.00 hours. Here in Southern Turkey, amidst farmers and peasants busy with their land and lifestock: a day = a day, with SUN up - SUN down working hours, although *THE SUNDAY* is always considered a special day here - with visiting relatives specially during the summer
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I *run my business* from home which is great stuff, thanks to the genius of others, mostly these would be, have been *of the male persuation*, and where would we be if they had not been so endowed - you know that approach women do not have, of few words, no-nonsense talk, earning money, that singular approach.
Yes, I like men because of those great assests that most women do not possess.
Where would the woman (of nearly 50 years marriage I mentioned earlier) BE ?? if that man, her legally married to husband had not been as he always shall be - A bully, a MCP (in case it has been forgotten: it stands for Male Chauvinist Pig).
And where would I be, if I had not told my husband, at that moment in time: NOW I AM GOING TO DIVORCE YOU (1991) ? Not here, probably still married without all the really great experience that *befell* me, all THE GODS *bequethed* me (saddled me with, the fearsome monsters aka pimping cowards).
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The (real) QUEEN BEE (of the beehive) has thousands of *darlings* working their *butt* of for her. There is absolutely no whiff even of *insubordination*, a male *hostile* take-over, it would be impossible even, nature as it is.
Once I became so furious, it took weeks for me to return to a certain equilibrium even, that I hand-wrote a book, about the position of a *male darling* (Turkish of course, but it would be applicable globally). The *darling* in question kept it safely under lock and key somewhere, believing the book to be valuable.
Not because of its contents usable for a *bestseller*, oh no, not at all. He played with the thought of using it in a court but lacked the experience to do so.
I was very surprised, looked up from what I was doing (something *intellectualy* in his eyes), saw the lewd and calculating flicker in his eyes: MONEY!!.that meant, getting his hands on money somehow.
I knew, I had learned the hard way, about lewd boys in an Adult body, about the lack of education in existence here, indeed creating evil monsters. Plato was quite accurate, and I wished I had been around when he was alive, then I would not have been such a stupid idiot, should it be true that one can come back in future lives. The information would then have *arrived* with me, in the genes so-to-say.
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The 21st Century is all about *AWARENESS*, about learning how to PERFORM better throughout life, about learning through available knowledge, now so accessable.
It is a pleasure, it must be a pleasure for everyone, because the feelings of CONTROL are so *good* for one's EGO. Knowledge = POWER = WEALTH
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ByeBye, until I write again: Willy A.C. Holmes-Spoelder
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Thursday, June 25, 2009
21st Century Awareness - The AGE of *Wiki*(=fast,what I know)
WIKI*TRICS * and *the way we ARE*.
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Is there something *more rewarding or *satisfying* than *Wiki* ? Of course there is - for instance the opposite of *wiki* (in English now: slow - what I don't know). *Wiki* apparently is a Hawaii-an word for *fast* and *what I know*
However, as that may be - true or nor so true - right or not so right, I AM DELIGHTED that the Wikipedia + the multiple other developments coming from the existence of Wikipedia EXISTS.
As one gets older - TODAY - I mean and not referring to 100 years ago and what one was doing then (at my age for instance) - one has *more time*, daily.
It seems that way, no longer busy WORKING for a living, as the majority of the world population most certainly is doing, whether as a farmer or a supermarket sales person, whether as a clerk in an dreary accountant's office, or as a high profile television person(ality), it is all there and people are doing it, not only *for the fun of it*, but ALWAYS for the money one earns performing such tasks.
This morning, opening a file on my *notebook* (with - these days ONLY - 160 GB) where I had stored some not yet listened to MUSIC, the *star* being MANITAS DE PLATA, I was wondering how he is doing (today). Born as Ricardo Baliardo, 7th August 1921 in The Camargue, that magical place in the south of France, he is now of an age - soon 88 - that I wished I had been much closer to him (all my life) because then I could phone him, or someone *there* to ask.
I met him only once, and that occasion keeps popping up in my mind often these days, no longer young, not even *middle-aged*, but almost 70 myself. When I *met him*, an unforgettable event for me at least, I had just bought myself a ticket to his performance one (weekday) evening. There were only a handful of people, and actually I felt *insulted* on his behalf that hardly anyone in The Netherlands was there to listen to this incredible FLAMENGO Gitarist.
I had always been a lover of Flamengo music, and Flamengo dancing, even was able to play the castignettes and dance myself (not to badly for a completely unskilled in this - person). As if it *was in me* I had always felt. Hearing the music now FEELS GOOD !!!, but when I has just downloaded this *treasure* of Manitas de Plata music, and was reminded again of the fact that NOW he is already quite old, and that I am *stuck* in a country where they do not know such artists, where very little that is wonderful, great, beautiful, everything I love, admire and *go for* is available, I could not even listen, because the very thought of everything that no longer is available, accessable MAKES ME DEPRESSED, very sad.
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Imagine it: I would just be able to get in my car, should I be living in The Netherlands, throw a few things in a suitcase, and DRIVE to where this great guitarist is still alive.
I can write this down thanks to the existance 1) of Internet, where I checked whether he was still alive, found little (but enough to find him!!) about 2 years ago and recently, after this *major* torrent download, AT LAST: more extensively *in the Wikipedia*
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Yes, had I lived in The Netherlands (now), feeling as nostalgic as I often do these days with the certainty that many persons I once knew, loved, *enjoyed* (as artists, performers) no longer are alive and with time *flying* - racing past is more how it feels these days - I really wished that I would be able to some things, I had never thought of I should want to be doing, or that would be available, possible to turn into a real event.
I must add that should I have more money available than I have now, I would be having a car, my cats and dog would be ready to travel *abroad*, with a *chip* and traceable registration nummer *within them*, and also then I could GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE - just ahead of that enormous super-tsunami wave as I would be picturing myself, racing in my miniscule car (by comparison) and then: just by the nippers (hakken over de sloot), a bit out of breath having been running for my life, SAFELY over the (Greek) border, on my way - and with: I SHALL NEVER GO BACK THERE, still shivering from having escaped, having made it.
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This morning then: deliberately choosing Manitas's wonderful guitermusi to listen to AND whilst chooing: YE$$$, I can handle that, I can *stand* it, FEEL HAPPY listening.
Still whilst making myself a cup of wonderful coffee: I began to wonder about Manitas, how would he be? Still going strong, but no longer touring? Or old and feeble, suffering from dementia, no longer knowing his surroundings, no longer even remembering his music perhaps? Only one keyword came to mind as soon as I began to think about this great man: APPLAUSE !!
And that in fact goes for *everyone*!! APPLAUSE. We all need applause, we all like to have some *attention*, and how dreary it get, when only you, yourself is *left*, and not anyone around and present to give you some *applause*, some attention, a smile, a word.
Whilst storing these brief thoughts into my mind, I also thought about *that comfortable know-how - today *the 25th* of the month - the second portion of my retirement-money would be paid into my bank account. I have not checked this yet though, it could well be that the money is transferred at the end of this working day, however: tonight it shall be there.
Note: I just checked, the ease and comfort of online banking, but the money I just mentioned is not yet in my bank account, which is *not yet* something to worry about, financial institutions being as they are (keeping the money as long as possible = *earning money*, is it not!!), yet I would have felt much much *happier*, instead of looking at my balance*sheet*, noticing that a certain amount had been deducted, leaving me with a *less* positive balance than I had hoped for to *clap* eyes on.
Despite this, I need to transfer €100 into the account of my daughter, as is the agreement to clear up the debt in her debit account before the end of each month. This I shall do NOW, and I shall continue with writing some time later. After all, this blog gets posted, but who reads it, but me is something I do not know, I do care though, it would be nice if it was being read by others.
More about *wiki*-ing, that was what caused me to have the feeling that I wanted to put some thoughts, some things I had just *achieved*, by researching WIKIPEDIA, into words.
Baking Soda, and Baking Powder: ALL MY LIFE, not a fanatic *baker* myself, I had been wondering what the difference is between the two - NOW I KNOW - thanks to Wikipedia, and of course thanks to my own *choice* or *decision* that NOW I was finally going to get to the bottom of that *unsolved mistery*.
I did, marvelling again that Wikipedia exists, and in an instant (fast) I get to the information I am looking for.
At the same time, listening to Manitas, hearing the LIVE *applause*, this is a 1997 live recording, knowing he is nearly 90, also knowing that he *was born an illiterate* (don't know whether he did decide to learn to read and write) - I was *grateful* for all *the riches* I do have
despite my shortage of money.
How the world is of someone, who cannot read or write, how the world is of someone, whose mind *has gone*, it fills me with feelings of horror, I could not bear it for myself and I do feel terrible sorry, and *terrible* when someone else is like that, really.
It also must be awful if one cannor see, is blind and therefore *handicapped* in many ways, is deaf and cannot hear the beautiful tones, and music to restore one*s EQUILIBRIUM.
I cannot undo this for others, nor do I really know *how they live with such enormous losses and handicaps*
Until the next time - about 21st Century Awareness - the good. the bad, the uglies.
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Is there something *more rewarding or *satisfying* than *Wiki* ? Of course there is - for instance the opposite of *wiki* (in English now: slow - what I don't know). *Wiki* apparently is a Hawaii-an word for *fast* and *what I know*
However, as that may be - true or nor so true - right or not so right, I AM DELIGHTED that the Wikipedia + the multiple other developments coming from the existence of Wikipedia EXISTS.
As one gets older - TODAY - I mean and not referring to 100 years ago and what one was doing then (at my age for instance) - one has *more time*, daily.
It seems that way, no longer busy WORKING for a living, as the majority of the world population most certainly is doing, whether as a farmer or a supermarket sales person, whether as a clerk in an dreary accountant's office, or as a high profile television person(ality), it is all there and people are doing it, not only *for the fun of it*, but ALWAYS for the money one earns performing such tasks.
This morning, opening a file on my *notebook* (with - these days ONLY - 160 GB) where I had stored some not yet listened to MUSIC, the *star* being MANITAS DE PLATA, I was wondering how he is doing (today). Born as Ricardo Baliardo, 7th August 1921 in The Camargue, that magical place in the south of France, he is now of an age - soon 88 - that I wished I had been much closer to him (all my life) because then I could phone him, or someone *there* to ask.
I met him only once, and that occasion keeps popping up in my mind often these days, no longer young, not even *middle-aged*, but almost 70 myself. When I *met him*, an unforgettable event for me at least, I had just bought myself a ticket to his performance one (weekday) evening. There were only a handful of people, and actually I felt *insulted* on his behalf that hardly anyone in The Netherlands was there to listen to this incredible FLAMENGO Gitarist.
I had always been a lover of Flamengo music, and Flamengo dancing, even was able to play the castignettes and dance myself (not to badly for a completely unskilled in this - person). As if it *was in me* I had always felt. Hearing the music now FEELS GOOD !!!, but when I has just downloaded this *treasure* of Manitas de Plata music, and was reminded again of the fact that NOW he is already quite old, and that I am *stuck* in a country where they do not know such artists, where very little that is wonderful, great, beautiful, everything I love, admire and *go for* is available, I could not even listen, because the very thought of everything that no longer is available, accessable MAKES ME DEPRESSED, very sad.
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Imagine it: I would just be able to get in my car, should I be living in The Netherlands, throw a few things in a suitcase, and DRIVE to where this great guitarist is still alive.
I can write this down thanks to the existance 1) of Internet, where I checked whether he was still alive, found little (but enough to find him!!) about 2 years ago and recently, after this *major* torrent download, AT LAST: more extensively *in the Wikipedia*
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Yes, had I lived in The Netherlands (now), feeling as nostalgic as I often do these days with the certainty that many persons I once knew, loved, *enjoyed* (as artists, performers) no longer are alive and with time *flying* - racing past is more how it feels these days - I really wished that I would be able to some things, I had never thought of I should want to be doing, or that would be available, possible to turn into a real event.
I must add that should I have more money available than I have now, I would be having a car, my cats and dog would be ready to travel *abroad*, with a *chip* and traceable registration nummer *within them*, and also then I could GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE - just ahead of that enormous super-tsunami wave as I would be picturing myself, racing in my miniscule car (by comparison) and then: just by the nippers (hakken over de sloot), a bit out of breath having been running for my life, SAFELY over the (Greek) border, on my way - and with: I SHALL NEVER GO BACK THERE, still shivering from having escaped, having made it.
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This morning then: deliberately choosing Manitas's wonderful guitermusi to listen to AND whilst chooing: YE$$$, I can handle that, I can *stand* it, FEEL HAPPY listening.
Still whilst making myself a cup of wonderful coffee: I began to wonder about Manitas, how would he be? Still going strong, but no longer touring? Or old and feeble, suffering from dementia, no longer knowing his surroundings, no longer even remembering his music perhaps? Only one keyword came to mind as soon as I began to think about this great man: APPLAUSE !!
And that in fact goes for *everyone*!! APPLAUSE. We all need applause, we all like to have some *attention*, and how dreary it get, when only you, yourself is *left*, and not anyone around and present to give you some *applause*, some attention, a smile, a word.
Whilst storing these brief thoughts into my mind, I also thought about *that comfortable know-how - today *the 25th* of the month - the second portion of my retirement-money would be paid into my bank account. I have not checked this yet though, it could well be that the money is transferred at the end of this working day, however: tonight it shall be there.
Note: I just checked, the ease and comfort of online banking, but the money I just mentioned is not yet in my bank account, which is *not yet* something to worry about, financial institutions being as they are (keeping the money as long as possible = *earning money*, is it not!!), yet I would have felt much much *happier*, instead of looking at my balance*sheet*, noticing that a certain amount had been deducted, leaving me with a *less* positive balance than I had hoped for to *clap* eyes on.
Despite this, I need to transfer €100 into the account of my daughter, as is the agreement to clear up the debt in her debit account before the end of each month. This I shall do NOW, and I shall continue with writing some time later. After all, this blog gets posted, but who reads it, but me is something I do not know, I do care though, it would be nice if it was being read by others.
More about *wiki*-ing, that was what caused me to have the feeling that I wanted to put some thoughts, some things I had just *achieved*, by researching WIKIPEDIA, into words.
Baking Soda, and Baking Powder: ALL MY LIFE, not a fanatic *baker* myself, I had been wondering what the difference is between the two - NOW I KNOW - thanks to Wikipedia, and of course thanks to my own *choice* or *decision* that NOW I was finally going to get to the bottom of that *unsolved mistery*.
I did, marvelling again that Wikipedia exists, and in an instant (fast) I get to the information I am looking for.
At the same time, listening to Manitas, hearing the LIVE *applause*, this is a 1997 live recording, knowing he is nearly 90, also knowing that he *was born an illiterate* (don't know whether he did decide to learn to read and write) - I was *grateful* for all *the riches* I do have
despite my shortage of money.
How the world is of someone, who cannot read or write, how the world is of someone, whose mind *has gone*, it fills me with feelings of horror, I could not bear it for myself and I do feel terrible sorry, and *terrible* when someone else is like that, really.
It also must be awful if one cannor see, is blind and therefore *handicapped* in many ways, is deaf and cannot hear the beautiful tones, and music to restore one*s EQUILIBRIUM.
I cannot undo this for others, nor do I really know *how they live with such enormous losses and handicaps*
Until the next time - about 21st Century Awareness - the good. the bad, the uglies.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
21st Century Awareness - more of the same *evilness*
This planet is no longer as it *used-to-be*, in every possible way we could imagine.
Scientists studying the stars, the Universe can say a lot about that: with every particle of a split second, something changes *out there*. The powers are awesome, beyond our powers of imagination, beyond mine certainly.
As a *normal* occupant of our planet I live my life, and sometimes every day * making the best of it* is easy, at other moments I feel bogged down with the sheer boredom of it all, and also at some moments - when everything is progressing either according to wishes and plans, at least *that day* can be regarded as one which had been relatively successful. It is obvious that as soon as you have a *string* of such good, successful days, making this *a good, successful week, the feelings of *WELLNESS* can become more permanent, have a lasting POSITIVE effect on you.
While I outlined the heading of this blog so many words expressing what I mean came to mind.
In fact what I want to write about comes from an accumulation of TWENTY years METAPHYSICAL *scientific* awareness and *practical* experience.
As I mentioned: above our heads *The Universe* keeps moving, exploding with *new* situations all the time. We as humans living on a pinprick in that Universe are *sitting ducks* unless we *do something about it*. For instance: the RADIATION that we are exposed to on this planet is much much more intensive than prior to an enormous meteoric impact on the planet JUPITER, which occured early 1994. (check it out: NASA has records).
I want everyone to be aware of the effects such unavoidable *accidents* have on us, on our metabolism, our cells, our lives and ??? if so, what can we ourselves do to continue living with this added STRESS, physically and mentally.
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